On another note, I miss many of the things that we stopped doing when we moved here like composting. I want to try and pick that up again. I feel like cloth diapering is totally out, which is sad because if I had a washer and drier, I probably would have never stopped. I also hope Z potty trains soon so that diapers IN GENERAL are in the end of their phase.
Additionally, I am happy to report that Z has been better (or maybe I've been more patient). I feel like she's whining less (or again, like I'm dealing with it better). I feel like she really gets upset the most when there is something she feels she has to do and for some reason she can't. Either frustration or a parent telling her to stop what she's doing for various reasons (for example, if she wants something, but we think she's going to hurt herself the way she's going about getting it). She's been really helpful and sweet and even eating better. She still does her stubborn thing or doesn't want to listen, just like every kid, but she's pretty awesome. Lyla is definitely entering her "2's", but she's still pretty rockin' as well. I love how much they love each other. I really feel like we have such a cool little unit going on.
That reminds me. Some times people think I want, or will want, more kids. I suppose the idea could come to me, but I really don't think I'll seriously want more. Kids are cute, and I do like them, but there are so many reasons I don't want to even go there. For one, I can't afford it. I don't think it would be fair to the kids that ALREADY exist to make more that I don't, as of right now, have ANY obligation to. I have a hard enough time paying attention and caring for Z and L, and I stress SO much, more than anything, about providing for them. Making more, if I can help it, is not really part of the solution.
That reminds me. Some times people think I want, or will want, more kids. I suppose the idea could come to me, but I really don't think I'll seriously want more. Kids are cute, and I do like them, but there are so many reasons I don't want to even go there. For one, I can't afford it. I don't think it would be fair to the kids that ALREADY exist to make more that I don't, as of right now, have ANY obligation to. I have a hard enough time paying attention and caring for Z and L, and I stress SO much, more than anything, about providing for them. Making more, if I can help it, is not really part of the solution.
Secondly, they are so close in age and relationship that any new baby years later will be totally on it's own like an only child. That, and I'm really not interested in having another one so soon, even if I were financially able, and I'm SURELY not interested in having any after 30 (I'm physically destroyed enough as it is. Don't believe me? I pee myself). So there is the impossiblility of a time frame that just doesn't exist. I really love having them as my two little ones, and that they have each other. Sure, I said I wanted more before I had any, but as many new parents soon learn, you tend to change your mind about something once you actually learn what it's like!
And I suppose that's it for now.
Hey, thanks for updating us! Good luck on the Hebrew! It's gotta be so tough, especially with an entirely different alphabet. And kids, ahhhh kids. Thing is, i suppose you never know if you'll want to change your mind or whatever. For me, I have no clue what number is THE number for us, but 2 always sounds good. Then again, I meet people with really large families and I LOVE the idea. My siblings are awesome and I couldn't imagine it just being my bro and I. My sister is so vital to the mix! I wanted my mom to have another baby to when I was in high school, but she didn't, obviously. Money is always an issue though, it's tough. Plus it's hard to spread yourself so thin, you know? I dunno, I really love large families though.
ReplyDeleteYour kids are SO cute! I don't think a 3rd baby would feel like a single child either, btw. Maybe for a while. But my cousins Tawnya and Alan are like 14 years-ish older than their little sister and she does get a lot of single attention now that Tawnya and Alan have moved out, but it's not at all like she's a single child. I dunno. If anything, it's really sweet that she has such older siblings that she can look to like quasi-parental figures.
That's so great that Z is exiting the terrible 2's! I feel like Ari is too. I I mean they all have their days, good and bad cause they are little humans. I hope you learn Hebrew! And have or don't have as many kids as you like ;-)
ReplyDeleteI found it to be very difficult to learn another language if you do not have an opportunity to speak it on a daily basis.Some almost 20 years ago , while still living in Russia ,I was trying to learn Hebrew as well.But only years later,when I lived in Israel for about 8ms,I became fluent in it at no time.Because my husband is an Israeli, we speak it home even now, however,unfortunately for me,I am only fluent in it on the conversational level,but never really made an effort to continue writing and reading.
ReplyDeleteThen when I came to live in NY ,I had difficulties speaking English as well,although I did study it at school and at the the university as well. I could read and understand what I just read,but could not say a word or answer a question or carry on a simple conversation,which was really challenging.That came several months later as well.
And now to answer your question if you ever could express yourself in any other language as well as you could in your native tongue. I can tell you that now, almost 18 years later after my arrival in NY , I can express myself in English the same way I can express myself in my native Russian(and Russian language and literature was always my passion and my second major ),so I could say that now I am equally fluent in both languages (minus the accent in my Russian,though...).Also, years ago I've read someplace that you could say that you've mastered another language when you start thinking in that language. I do ,but it took several years.Be persistent and patient (I know it is hard with small kids,I've been there as well,I am still there some days,as my now 6 year old son behaves like a 3 year old sometimes and my almost 10 year old daughter is entering pre-teens with the whole new set of challenges,believe me ! ).But may be , when the financial situation will permit you,a trip to Israel will help tremendously with your Hebrew learning quest. Good luck !
P.S. Your girls are gorgeous ,really precious , I miss those times with my kids however difficult they were at the time ,but ,alas, I am not about to have another one...
i liked this blog a lot for some reason! :)
ReplyDeleteHey Evelyn! Nice to meet you! I tried to learn a *little* bit of Russian, but really only know a few words, mostly curses! LOL! :) But I hear you. I do want to go, possibly to live, so I know that will help, but I want to learn some ahead of time as well. I think I do think in other languages as soon as I learn even a little bit, but obviously only those few words. It's part of my obsessive mind. I think I dreamed last night of two Hebrew words over and over. Didn't make a lot of sense. Haha. I'm sure when I *think* consecutively in the language that would really be something. I also want to continue learning German, since I should have never forgotten it! :(
ReplyDeleteAmanda, yea I hear you. I also wanted a lot before. Even if one further apart would work for us, I still don't want to have any more and I don't want to have kids too late in life either. :\ So that's that I think for us. I dunno, I sort of feel like two is what we're supposed to have. No way to know really!